To my FIRST FRUIT Jamar

 
NO!!!!! You CANNOT HAVE HIM!!! You must not know WHO I AM!!! I am a child of the GREAT I AM! I will NOT back down or be denied, discouraged or tossed to the side. Don't start no mess because you cannot handle the truth! The truth shall make us ALL free! 

My son is a healthy,  smart, well behaved child of the KING! He is patient, kind, loving, and oh so handsome. His mind is focused and his spirit is beautiful. He is the heir to the throne. Blessings run him down. He is anointed and prophetic and powerful! 

He is the FIRST FRUIT! My very first sacrifice. He belongs only to GOD! The first fruit is special. It is separated from everything else. It marks the beginnings of freedom from slavery.

(James 1:18 (NIV)
18 He chose to give us birth through the word of truth, that we might be a kind of firstfruits of all he created

The first fruit to the Lord is special. It is the best you have to offer and usually a bigger sacrifice. So I gave HIM my best. Lord have your way with him! I give him to YOU! In Ezekiel 44:30, it is said that a blessing will rest on my house when I give you my first!

Lord I am humbled at the remembrance of YOUR promises! You say Yea and Amen! I know what YOU said is true. It may not feel good now, but I know what YOU said and I will not forget. Thank you for the redeeming power over my first fruit seed. Thank you for your patient loving ways that are so beyond me. Thank you LORD Thank YOU!!!!!! Hallelujah AMEN! HE said IT, I BELIEVE IT, THAT SETTLES IT! 

My Commitment as a Woman of God

I am of the fellowship of the unashamed. I have the Holy Spirit and the power that comes with Him. The dye has been cast. I have stepped over the line and the decision has been made. I am a disciple of His. I will not look back, or let up, slow down, back away, or be still.

My past is redeemed and covered under the blood. My presence makes sense and my future holds purpose. My future is definitely secure. I am finished and done with low living, slight walking, small planning, small thinking, colorless visions, mundane talking, cheap living, and dwarf thinking.

I no longer need popularity, applause, position, early promotion, flattery, or praise from man. I don't have to be right, or first or recognized or regarded or rewarded by man.

I live by faith, lean on his presence, walk by patience, lifted and infused by prayer and labor by his DUNAMIS (strength or power from God) power. MY FACE IS SET, my gait is fast, my goal is heaven, my road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions are few, my mission is clear and my source is reliable.

I cannot be bought, paid off, bribed, compromised, detoured, lured away, turned back, delayed, or distracted. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of the adversary, negotiate at the table of the enemy or ponder at the pools of popularity.

I WILL NOT GIVE UP, SHUT UP,OR LET UP, until I have stayed up, prayed up, stored up, paid up for the cause of Christ and my father. I am a disciple of Jesus. I must tell of His coming, give until I drop, preach until all men know and work until HE stops me. I know NO limitations!

My children are obedient and taught of the Lord. They wake up and call me blessed. They have no choice but to follow God all the days of their lives. And when He comes for His own, He will have no problem recognizing me from the world. My banner will be lifter high, my line of demarcation will be clear. I AM GOD'S WOMAN!

ALL THINGS.............

"Cause me to hear Your loving kindness in the morning, For in You do I trust;
Cause me to know the way in which I should walk, For I lift up my soul to You"
(Psalm 143:8) Oh to be kept by Jesus is the ONLY way to be a kept woman! He will never leave you or forsake you! Peace everlasting Joy be yours today and forever more. Thank Him in the Bad and thank Him in the good. For ALL things work for together for those that love HIM! Praise Him Loud and proud. For He is not ashamed of us and neither are we of HIM!!!!! The keys of the kingdom are yours to unlock what you will.

You have not, because you ask not.

I dare you to ENLARGE you territory and call upon the King, Father of all, for something today, and it shall be given unto you pressed down, shaken together, and running over because He said we will live an abundant life! AMEN

Boys II Men

So.... it hit me, and I mean HARD!I was listening to my sons arguing about some foolish things and I heard right there,"They are children!" It was like lightening and thunder! People always focus on girls and how they throw away their childhoods because they are getting pregnant and moving too fast in life. What about these boys who are going to be men?
There are times when we, as single parents, (mothers), put a huge responsibility on the eldest boy. He has to be, shall I dare say, the man of the house.
I think that this phenomenon takes on a sick form that we as women have to generally see in grown men now. They act like children!
I think that a lot of guys had to bare such a HUGE responsibility growing up in a house generally with a mother only, that as soon as they can afford to goof off, they do!
They have already been some one's daddy and partner.
So ladies, I know it's hard to do it alone, but leave these boys to be boys! Do not make them grow up too fast because when responsibility comes a knocking they will embrace it as a new challenge and not and OLD BURDEN!

(Destroyer of the strongholds)

Your today, were your thoughts of yesterday. If you don't like it, then you need to "Change your mind." What do you meditate on? You give your spirit permission to make it happen! Even the most perfect thing is not perfect if you have given into your thoughts. You have a perception that is marred and you will unfairly judge who you are with or around. Influences come from everywhere. They come from our families and the ways we were raised. It also comes from our environments. God says he has to get us out of it, so He can get us into our real destiny! We have to let go of "Egypt" to get into the "Promise." Ask God to examine you and then be corrected. God wants you to have life more abundantly, if you do this...........! You must learn to read it that way! The scripture says "might" have life! You know why? Some people choose not to live the abundant life that He has set before us. You don't want to settle. You want to be overwhelmed and taken over by blessings, right? To have a relationship with God is to be happy! A stronghold is a fortress of wrong thoughts! They MUST BE PULLED DOWN!!!! Watch what you look at and listen to. We have moved away from God because of our wrong thought processes. We don't want to give up our life styles for God. We are destroying our families, children, and the future. Sin starts with a thought , turns into a choice and into a habit, then you loose control, and then it becomes bondage and you lose total control! Change your thoughts! Let it become a habit!Be transformed to the renew2 Corinthians 10:3-6 (Amplified Bible)
3For though we walk (live) in the flesh, we are not carrying on our warfare according to the flesh and using mere human weapons.
4For the weapons of our warfare are not physical [weapons of flesh and blood], but they are mighty before God for the overthrow and destruction of strongholds,
5[Inasmuch as we] refute arguments and theories and reasonings and every proud and lofty thing that sets itself up against the [true] knowledge of God; and we lead every thought and purpose away captive into the obedience of Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed One),
6Being in readiness to punish every [insubordinate for his] disobedience, when your own submission and obedience [as a church] are fully secured and complete.ing of your mind.

Don't let the "father of lies" have you convinced that you are okay in your everyday habits that are ungodly.

Example of a stronghold:

The man at the pool was laying in front of the healing pool and could not get in it because of a disability.

Jesus asked,"do you want to be healed?"

His answer,"I have no man....." (excuse!)

His mind set was that he needed a man to help him to the pull and when the CHRIST showed up and asked the question his mind had been bound MORE than his body!

Pray with me:

Lord I ask you right now to touch whoever is reading this. That you heal their emotions and their minds. Lord we know that you are a mighty God who can do ALL things that we ask even before we do. I thank you for the mighty deliverance that is taking place in the spirit of the man or woman that was brave enough to acknowledge that they need a to change their minds. Lord place people in their lives that agree with wonderful and positive things and that they cast down and do not agree with those negative thoughts and things that we say. I pray that you would teach us your ways in all things. In Jesus mighty name,

Amen

How to Pray

There was a time when I had a really hard time praying to an invisible being. It felt as if I were talking to myself. So I want to encourage you to stand still and KNOW that HE does hear you. When I would get on my knees, a strange thing would occur. I would draw a complete blank. One day in a church I heard someone say,"Start with THANK YOU!" I guarantee that once you begin with that, you may be there in that place for a while and forget that you have burdens and sorrows. Try it with me now:

God I thank you for waking me. I thank you for my family. I thank you for my active sight and hearing(remembering not to take these things lightly!) Thank you for being able to walk, talk, and being in my right mind. Thank you for my friends. Thank you for your Son, who died for me. Thank you for your grace. Thank you for your mercy. Thank you for providing a way. Thank you for food on the table. Thank you for................

Now you fill in what you will.

Did I sign up for this?

Who says,"Yeah I want to wake up  in a house with children ALONE!" Who signs up to struggle everyday working to pay bills and not see the children that you work so hard to support? Who signs up to hope that you make just enough to make the rent but not enough so that you still receive some type of government assistance. Who loves the lonely feeling that creeps over you as you try to clear the lump in your throat as you look into these innocent eyes that feel left and unloved. It ALWAYS feels like your fault! ALWAYS! How many ,"No's", do you hand out because there is no check showing up at the first of the month from daddy. How may doctors appointments and countless school activities are enjoyed solo? Television cannot sum up this feeling of "empty" that is the word,"single Mother!" THAT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE!!! Babies don't get here alone by a miracle. There needs to be a vaccine for this epidemic. I am tired of hearing that speech about how mom made the difference cause she struggled to do it for us all alone!!!! There should not be a "struggle".

I am done.

Never say never

I closed my eyes and there it was

The thing I said I could and should do without

I let myself forget 

I stopped breathing

It was too hard to admit that I missed that part of me

I thought I was over it

Feelings buried under feelings 

let it go

never say never

The Last Request

In loving memory of Master Sensei Joseph R. Richardson

Please don't say that I gave up, just say that I gave in; don't say I lost the battle, for it was God's war to lose or win; please don't say how good I was, but that I did my best; just say I tried to do what's right, to give the most I could, not less; please don't give me wings or halos, that's for God to do; I want no more hat I deserve, no extras, just my due; please don't give flowers, or talk in real hushed tones; don't be concerned about me now, I'm well with God,I've made it home; don't talk about what could have been, it's over and it's done, just see to all my family's needs, especially the little ones; when you draw a picture of me, don't draw me a saint ;I've done some good, I've done some wrong, so use all your paint; not just the bright and light tines, use some grey and dark; in fact, don't put me on canvas, paint me in your heart; don't just remember the good times, but remember all the bad; for life is full of many things, some happy and some sad, but if you must do something then I have one request: forgive me  for the wrongs I've done, and with the love that's left, Thank God for my soul's resting, thank God for all who loved me, praise God who loved me best.

Daddy

The first thing that comes to my mind is that my daddy was funny! He laughed about everything. He LOVED children's company more that adult because he said that they were honest. My dad LOVED his family, near and far. He always answered the phone saying, I knew you would cal cause i was thinking of you. I know where he went, but saying goodbye is no easy task. I wanted just one more laugh, one more,"Hey grandma!" One more pep talk. He told me I was stronger than I thought and now I don't know about that. He was the first man to take me on a walk along the beach. The first man to have a candle light dinner with and taught me how I should be treated. He also showed me how to kick someone's butt if they tried me! Thank you for the karate! Daddy was the coolest man I knew! He would walk into a room of strangers and come out with a bunch of new friends! He told me that real women don't curse,(it is unattractive). He said that,no, is not always a bad thing. He said that he and I had a divine connection and I know we do. Compassion was something I know I got from my daddy. If you cried, he did too! If you were angry, he was even the more! There will NEVER be another like him! I LOVE YOU DADDY!!!!!